If I Closed My Eyes Forever

I can't sleep...

2009-06-11T04:26:04Z

Someone talk to meee :)

Twilight Monster!

2009-06-10T04:23:47Z

*yawns* I'm tiiiiiiiired! So i'm just going to post a quick entry to tell you about my crazy Edward obsessed mother! xD

Okay. My mom isn't really a big reader. I think she's only read one book in a really small ammount of time (Dale Jr's biography and that's because she's insane for him) and she's trying to read the bible and she's getting pretty close to finishing it. But, I think two weeks ago it was, we watched the MTV Movie Awards and we watched the New Moon trailer... and she was pretty into it and so we watched the Twilight movie and she really loved it so I gave her the book to read and now every night we read together (she reads twilight, I read New Moon). But... i have created a MONSTER!

She went from page 40 to like page 160 in a matter of 2 days! That's like an insane ammount for her and now, she's in love with Edward and she calls him her "sexy boy." Do you agree that I have created a monster?! xD At first, she seemed really crazy for Jake since you see him and all his bare chesty goodness in the New Moon trailer but then she thought he was ugly in the movie because of that hideous wig they make him wear... and now she just loves Edward.

*pukes*

TEAM JACOB FTW!

I mean, I'm seriously happy my mom is getting into Twilight. I'm also a huge HP fan and so is she. As a kid, I read to her every book up until the 5th one outloud and we've seen every single movie (and the 4th and 5th ones at midnight parties and we plan to see the 6th one at midnight as well!) and without HP, I think our relationship wouldn't be so strong since we really bonded a lot over it and now I'm glad she's getting into Twilight since this is another thing we can share.

I'm not totally against Edward... I really love him and his character and when I first read Twilight... yes, I admit. I was totally Pro-Eddie. But New Moon came along and he leaves Bella and yeah, he comes back, but he wasn't winning my favor back and I can't help but adore Jake! :3 It's gonna be weird... Me, Team Jake/Kinda Team Swiss and my mom Team Edward/sortaaa Team Swiss living in the same house! x3

Interview Meme!

2009-06-08T21:57:01Z

1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me."
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will post the answers to the questions (and the questions themselves) on your blog or journal.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions. And thus the endless cycle of the meme goes on and on and on and on ...

1. How'd you find out about Kingdom Hearts?

I found out about Kingdom Hearts (the first one) through a comercial. I thought it was pretty cool. I was aready a big fan of Final Fantasy and I thought it was pretty interesting that Disney and FF could mix... and not fail. And also, I was playing FFX at the time and I think in one of the commercials I saw Tidus (from Destiny Islands) in it and i had to see what this was all about xD

2. What do you want to do as a job?

I'd like to be a journalist or pretty much do anything with writing. Being a sports or music journalist is what I'd like to go to college for, since I am a sports freak and also music just because it's a big passion of mine and i'm seriously experiencing the whole music world with my brother's band getting so many gigs, tours, and oppourtunities and such. I also wanted to be a novel writer but I have zero ideas at the moment so that dream has pretty much died!

3. What's your favourite childhood memory?

Hmm... I'm not really sure. I have a lot. Probably watching anime a lot as a kid. I would watch Tenchi Muyo, Gundam Wing, Outlaw Star, and Sailor Moon all in the afternoons and stay up till around midnight to watch Dragonball Z and then somehow (if it was during the school year) get up for school the next day or if it was summer, sleep until around 1 and then do it all over again!

4. What's your favourite song and why?

I'm not really sure what my favorite song is at this exact moment. I have tons of them really. I guess at the moment, it's "Close My Eyes Forever" by Lita Ford and Ozzy Osbourne. It's just so pretty and Lita Ford is one rocking female :)

5. Do you like art (of any kind)?

Yeah I guess. Like some paintings and stuff are nice and drawings. I'm not exactly sure where to go with this one xD

Darling, What Is Going On?

2009-06-08T19:38:20Z

Awww. Just finished 100 Acre Wood in Kingdom Hearts 2. I've beaten this game a few times and this is the first time I've actually played that level and found all the torn pages! Yey me! :) I don't think I did it in the first one either... Hm. I missed out on all the Winnie The Pooh goodness!

Blah. I'm pretty tired and a little in pain and I'd like to just surf the web and be nerdy, but I think I should get some biology homework done today. Starting unit 3. Blahhh. BORING! I've been talking to my guidance consouler (sp?) and i'm going to be having a really busy year next year at school. No study hall I think. I'm scared lol! I've never not had a study hall and I'm pretty scared if I miss a day because then I'll have no time to make up work, it's all going to have to be in-class or at home and I seriously hate actually doing homework at home. I usually do everything half-assed if I do it at home. There's too many distractions at home! xD

Also, I'm pretty excited to join a few clubs this year. Who knows if tennis is going to be a possibility this year but we'll see. I seriously got to get my ass in gear with my PT work our program. I'd really love to do tennis but then again there's my brother's band's tour in August (if I had tennis I couldn't go to a lot of the stop dates) and school would really be hell with tennis. When I played tennis my last two years, I seriously depended on my study halls because if I had a match that night, I probably wouldn't get home until 7 and wouldn't sit down to do homework until around 8. But maybe if I skip tennis this year I can do a few other things I've wanted to do, like clubs and who knows... maybe... MUSICAL!? I seriously missed out on a cool musical last year though. They did GREASE! And usually we do really lame stuff like Annie... Blah. Who knows. I'll be really upset if I can't do tennis though. Every other sport would be wayyy too hardcore on my back. But who knows. Once I start wokring out like a beast I'll start worrying.

And i'm also worrying about my behind the wheels and driving. I just got my temps but I'm just scared to drive. I stop horribly and I can't really do turns that well. It's just scary. I used to be pretty good and nonchalant about driving but then I just started getting really stressed out about it when my parents would sit and critisize my driving and now blah. It's just insanely stressful and I'm a seriously paranoid driver and i'm TERRIFIED for behind the wheels! Ugh. Wish me luck on those, whenever I even get the balls to sign up xD

Well. Enough messing around... Gotta get my bio done. Dx

First Real Entry in... FOREVER!

2009-06-07T21:54:55Z

Blah... Can anyone please explain to me why sundays are always so boring!? Friday and Saturday are amazing and then when Sunday comes around you're just totally bored, there's never anything to do, no one can hang out since tomorrow is school/work, theres no good food, there's nothing on tv, etc. Blah.

Luckily "I'm A Celebrity... Get Me Out Of Here!" was on pretty much all day and I've been really into my latest file of Kingdom Hearts 2 and I have cheetos or i'd be losing my mind right about now.

I'm pretty stressed for the upcoming weeks. Just with school and all and usually you probably wouldn't hear this coming from a student this time of year. All my other peers having their three days of exams this week and then it's summer vacation for them. But not for me :( Last year I really fucked my back up playing tennis and not doing my physical therapy exercises and it led to tons of MRIs, cat scans, bone scans, scares that I'd have to get another back surgery, etc. and I was in pain constantly. I have never been so miserable, even after my two surgeries. (just a reminder, I had spinal fusions done for my problems with scoliosis and kyphosis, just in case anyone was wondering). I could barely get out of bed in the morning, let alone go to school so eventually, my school was kind enough to set me up in online classes (thank god... they were $400 a class!!!) and everything has been smooth sailing ever since... but i'm just afraid that now all my friends have summer vacation that I'm just going to totally slack on my classes. My semester started in March and won't end until August. I'm already done with my history course but I still have English, Math, and Bio. *sigh* let's hope things go well and I don't turn into a total slacker.

And i'm just stressed because of all the upcoming stuff these next few weekends. but I guess this is a big enough update for now. I think i'm going to go check out the bella/jacob comm and maybe find some Kingdom Hearts comms since i'm so interested lately!

pretty pretty!

2009-06-03T06:38:09Z

Hey ya'll. Ugh. 1:36 am and I seriously cannot fall asleep... so I'm sitting here reading Twilight fan fiction xD

I'm gonna do a big re-design of my LJ! Which means new user pics, new layout, new everything! I'm so excited :) Gonna go check out some good icons and such right now. I really should be in bed but the prospect of having all this new pretty stuff to spiffy up my page is too exciting to pass up!

:)

2009-06-01T03:02:10Z

im back!

Don't Worry Be Happy

2008-07-27T06:13:40Z

Best Parts Of The Night:

-Just being with DUANE! Ahhh. I love him. Too bad I didn't even get to say goodbye to him but I accidently took home his hoodie that he let me wear and this ring that he was wearing that he gave to me. whoopsies lol. Bahhh. neck kisses!! :D

- Getting two new ear piercings. Chris, Duane's mommy, has a piercing gun and this really amazing girl Shannon pierced them for me. On the second one I got a little scared because the gun wouldn't come away from the earring but it turned out okay.

- LOL. I told Duane and all of his friends that they didn't have the balls to throw me in the pool and they didn't! Mike almost did but yeah. ;]

- Bahaha. Kyle snuck me and Antoinette beer so that was a plus

And you know what? lets just forget the bad parts because i just don't fucking care. :] I'm way too happy to care.

BEST CONCERT EVER!

2008-07-07T21:43:20Z

Well, my mom and I went to Summerfest on friday to see Stone Temple Pilots! $200+ for tickets and it was absolutely worth it. It was the best 4th of july i've ever had and the best one my mom ever had.

We spent about an hour getting ready, beautifying ourselves and then we drove down there, both of us totally anxious. We got there around 1 and ate some mexican food that really wasn't good. My taquitos were okay but kind of tasteless and the chimichunga my mom got looked like... well, I dunno. gross. We should have just went with the good ol' hot dog or hamburger but oh well. Then we went shopping for a few hours and I bought a few pieces of jewlery and mom got a few shirts and OMG. I bought this delicious hawaiian shaved ice with bubble gum syrup. it was DELICIOUS. best thing i've ever eaten. haha. we sat around by the water front and basked in the sunlight. it was great.

Then we went to the Zippo stage to look for my friend Angela and her brother Trevor and we never ended up finding them but we discovered an amazing all girl band. JADED! They were freaking brilliant. After the concert we bought a t-shirt and two cds and I listen to them often. Great stuff, check them out.

Then we shared a hamburger and fries and headed back to the car to freshen up our hair and makeup and to get our sweatshirts. Then we headed up to the Marcus and got ready to see some STP!!! We wanted to get some merchandise but they REALLY overpriced the shirts and stuff. A shirt that i wanted went for $45 there when on the internet it was $30 and a sweatshirt at the concert was like $75 when on the internet it was $45. So i just bought a wristband. :) Then we went to our seats and they were really good! We lounged around at a table in the sunlight and at 7:20 we headed to our seats and Black Francis took the stage. The man was absolutely boring. He couldn't get the crowd to go crazy at all and my mom and I were just WAITING for him to get off. It was so boring! When he was finally done, we politely applauded and I guess the entire crowd agreed with our attitude toward him.

Then there was about a 15 minute wait for STP to take the stage and when they finally took the stage we were blown away. Scott took the stage with an american flag draped on his great bod and I thought my mom was just going to DIE. She has loved this band since they first came together and i was so happy for her and for us. They're first song was Big Empty and wow. I can now never listen to that song without getting chills. The concert was fabulous and when my mom's favorite song, Interstate Love Song, came on... wow. We were just blown away.

Scott Weiland has such a precense on stage, its just great. We were entranced by his good dancing abilities. ;) And also, the singing was GREAT. We were dancing, clapping, and singing for two hours straight and managed to make so many people dance and get excited in our section! it was great. the best concert i've ever been to. :]

Hello There!

2008-06-30T23:31:10Z

I can't believe how well some of my favorites did so far during Wimbledon! I thought everything was over once Maria lost in the second round ut man was I wrong. Lleyton did pretty well, despite his lost against Roger today but he did great. Marat is also on such a roll! AHH!! I'm pretty sad that Richard was sent home today but i guess it was fun watching the british crowd going crazy.

Really, summer has been a bore. I did hang out with Antoinette for an entire week and thats all great but now I just get up early, watch Wimbledon, and then clean and read for the rest of the time. ahhh. Anna needs to get out. I'm so in love with my LJ right now. :) i have nice prettiful icons and a wonderful layout! yay!

Standing On The Steps With My Heart In My Hands

2008-05-28T19:07:40Z

Ughhh. I am FAR too busy lately. My weekends are so filled up that I'm just going insane thinking about them even though I know I am going to have fun. This weekend I'm going to a brewer game with Antoinette, my dad, and his friend Dave and then on Sunday I'm getting my hair cut and re-highlighted and stuff. Then the next weekend after that, I'm going to be going to this party/memorial thing for my family's friend Elmer, who passed away last february and AHH. I have so much homework and study guides and projects that I just don't know how I'm going to do it.

I was planning on finishing my lab report and working on my science exam study guide last weekend but then there was the party with Duane and I wouldn't give that up for the world but geez. Bad timing on my part. Antoinette told me about it last minute and yeah. Maybe if she would have told me earlier I would have had a chance to work on it more but oh well. Lets go over what I have for each class:

Spanish II - Ugh. Our huge time line project (its like where you have to have pictures on a posterboard and then have entries in spanish under them explaining whats going on but theres only ten entries but its 50 points) was due today but I wasn't at school. Also, theres this 30 points anuncio project that I have to ask if I can make up. I only had 3 of the 6 done because the 3 other days I wasn't there to do it but I'm not too hopeful that my teacher will let me. Also, there is a quiz I have to make up and oral participation points i'm worrying about and then the exam. GUH.

Keyboarding - I'm not very worried about this class but I have so many projects to make up. The reports and the memos projects and i'm probably going to have to go in to work on my newsletter project. ughhh.

Science - Of course, the lab report, which is basically half of my grade. I am so fucking scared. I have most of it done but yeah. I still have the analysis and the conclusion to do and i have to finish it all tomorrow because its due on the 30th and yeah, the pressure is definately on. And there is the study guide to worry about. My teacher is the first to hand out study guides and I want to get it done before I have to worry about the other ones. less than 3 weeks to go for exams but I have no time to do anything!!

Math - Nothing to make up here besides a test so thats a big relief. And nothing much else to worry about in this class until the exam which is wonderful.

English - Ugh. I have to hand in my project and this pie chart thing and I'll be good but then theres the semester project to do, which will count as my exam grade so I NEED to do amazingly well on it.

Government - Nothing to make up here. Whew.

Halp meeee. I'm stresssssed.

More Than A Feeling

2008-05-26T22:29:34Z

Great Things About The Party:

- It was at Duane's house!!! AHH!!! I adore himmmm.

- I was with Antoinette, of course. I hate going to parties without her, they are just really fucking horrible. I have sooo much more fun with her there.

- Duane and his friends just loved my singing when i played rockband with them. First, I was playing "Don't Fear The Reaper" with Antoinette and some of Tommy's kids and either Chad or Kyle (i'm not sure, they were twins) said "oh my god... shes hitting every note, shes so good!" and he brought all of them down there and then they kicked all the kids off and we played "Pleasure" by Bang Camaro (aww. I talked with Chad/Kyle about the concert comming up in June. UGH. He's going, so I'm so jealous. The tickets are only $15 but I don't have a ride there and I don't think my mom would want to see that and we're trying to save our money for Summerfest) and that was amazing. Everyone was singing along and i enjoyed it. Then we played "Move Along" and some of the guys tried to play along with me and someone said "no no NO! Just let her sing it!" and yeah, that felt pretty good. We got 5 stars on expert so that was pretty bad ass. :)

- LOL. Okay, so I was singing and just as the song was about to start and I randomly just hear someone say "rimjob" really loudly and I just start LAUGHING so hard with Antoinette and I just say "...ew" into the mic and Duane looks over at me with this really mischevious amazing look on his face. bahaha.

- There was a lot more good things that happened but I dunno. My memory isn't working well right now. :( that always happens to me after really good parties. I'm just so relieved that I got to see Duane!!

Bad Things About The Party:

-There was this WERID Pedofile guy there! He was so huge he looked pregnant and he was old and as Antoinette, myself, and some of the kids were playing Rockband, he was just sitting there watching us and like laughing to himself... it was SO werid. and Antoinette and I were in the kitchen with some of the guys and they went away and then the pedo guy just randomly appears out of nowhere like 2 seconds after Dune, Chad, and Kyle leave and Antoinette was tying the knot in the back of my shirt because I couldn't get it and he said "....ooooh... tying a knot? It makes you look better," and me Antoinette were just like WHAT THE FUCK!? And so we go downstairs and we weren't leaving the basement because all the guys were down there to like protect us and then Duane's uncle Darren came down and pulled him away from the bar and he acme back SO mad. He was like "holy shit theres a fucking pedofile here! I'm going to beat his mother fucking ASS!" and after that we didn't see the pedo guy again.... thank GOD.

-At the end of the party, it was storming out so bad that they power went out when we were all playing rockband and the xbox got so fucked up that that little red ring thingy came on and the xbox just wouldn't work at all and everyone blamed Duane for some reason and he got SO fucking mad. He wasn't his fault, I mean what the fuck!

-Antoinette got really pissed off at me because I was playing Rockband with all the guys and she was kinda standing off doing nothing... It wasn't my fault all the guys wanted me to sing for them. :( What was I supposed to say? No? I was having a good time. D:

- Tommy's kids were SO annoying. They were like going CRAZY over Rockband and were singing horribly and on Guitar Hero they kept playing the same song OVER AND OVER AND OVER again. I mean what the fuck, they have the game at home, don't you know how to switch songs?

- We left so damn early! :( Usually Antoinette's step-dad, Steve, is the very last person to leave the party but it was storming out pretty bad so we left and Steve was getting kinda pissed that they guys were all hanging out with me and he got really mad that one of the guys (not sure who) was talking to Antoinette a lot. Geez. What is with my family and guys? Whenever a cute guy is talking to one of us, we have to leave right away, lol! talk about wayyy over-protective

- My camera, for some strange reason, wouldn't work at Duane's house. Antoinette and I think it was Elmer posessing the camera because he was on Steve's side about hanging around the guys because at Duane's house it wouldn't work but at Antoinette's house it worked fine. Talk about strange.... <<... >>...

- I didn't get to give Duane a proper goodbye. :(

Why Are Things So Difficult These Days!?

2008-05-15T01:36:57Z

I'm trying to request a copy of the 1968 version of Romeo and Juliet from another Library to send it to my library and to even do you need all this shit like a barcode and a pin number. What the fuck? Geez, so now I have to go out to the library tomorrow and request it in person.

GOD! How fucking hard is it to request a movie!?

I really want to see it because i've missed a few days of school and on those days my class watched the movie and everyone loves it and i've youtubed a few clips and it looks really good so I want to see it in full. The only part I got to see was Juliet crying in Friar Laurence's cell because of Romeo. :P

I've seen the latest version (the one with Leonardo and Claire Danes) and its kinda.... It was cool the first two times I saw it but now its just SO annoying now that I've read the book and its just like Shakespeare on fucking crack so Whateverrr.

Eyes On Me

2008-05-11T19:35:00Z

I just realized that I definately need more Brewer icons. Ugh. Just one measly JJ icon!? I mean, he looks wonderful in it but I definately need more.

Anyways, moving onnnnnnnnnnn:

- After TEN YEARS (seriously) I have finally beaten Final Fantasy 8!!! AHH! I can't believe it. It was so easy too. My main party was Squall, Rinoa, and Selphie all with their final weapons and at level 100 and it was basically a cake walk. I didn't think it was really difficult at all. Geez I'm SAD NOW. Now what the hell am I supposed to play? I guess I could pick up FF9 again but ehhh.. I dunno. I've been playing that one since it came out too and I do think it's pretty interesting but I dunno. We'll see.

- I seriously need to study today.

- I really wanted to play tennis today but its really bad outside and rainy so no such luck. I'm going to have to check the weather forecast for tomorrow and let's hope its good! I want to get out and play!

Well, I'm going to go watch the rest of the brewer game. I'm pretty happy that they're winning and also The Red Sox will be on tonight so it will give me something to do. :]

I'm going to end this entry now and I just wanted to say HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY and congrats to Dinara on her WIN in Berlin!

A Letter

2008-05-10T04:22:22Z

RYAN BRAUN I AM IN LOVE WITH YOUR SEXINESS.

And I love that you always look so gay with JJ. Thats damnnnn fine.

And your hair is really cute.

Let It Rain, Rain, Rain

2008-05-10T04:14:52Z

Dad is doing very well. He will even be released probably tomorrow night. :]

But I was really distraught at the hospital today. I spent a lot of good time with dad and I talked on the phone a bit with Antoinette but as I went out into the ICU waiting room, I saw a family there and I could hear them talking about this girl... and I knew I seen this particular girl in her room, hooked up to so many machines and tubes that it was absolutely familiar to my Grandma, who died this past summer. And they mentioned that some of her brain cells were dead and then, I went back to dad's room and then I came back out to the waiting room to get some snacks for him from the vending machine (he wasn't supposed to have any snacks or anything, he was supposed to just pick at some dinner but he was starving so I snuck out there to get him some snacks) and then more of this family had gathered and I really started worrying.

And then I saw a few family members in this confrence room talking with one of the doctors and I seriously almost had a panic attack. I wanted to sit and cry and i had such a deep pain in my chest and i just felt sick to my stomach.

I knew just somewhere deep in my heart that they were taking this girl, who appeared to be no older than me, off life support.

Mom and I said goodbye to Dad and when we left and went to the waiting room, I saw a few family members into the room, holding her hands. And we got out into the waiting room and I just burst into tears. Mom really wanted me to go in there and say something to them because I had been in their shoes. My Grandma wasn't brain dead but... she would have been hooked up to machines for months to clean her blood of the Leukemia and well... she just wouldn't come back and we decided to just end it... and well. I just.. I had been in that position too. But I just couldn't.

I know I sound SO nosy right now but do you guys think I should have said something? I kinda think I did the right decision and If someone would have came up to me and said that to me (like "I know what you're going through") i'd probably snap on them... but something in me tells me maybe they would have found comfort in it, somehow.

I don't know... I just feel really depressed right now.

I brought all of my school books and some binders and notebooks home to study from and I feel bad that I only had a few chances to study and I have this SUDDEN urge to study. :)

UGH. and WHAT THE HELL. My right ankle is bothering me SO much lately and I really don't want it to hurt me in my tennis or just in general. Last week it just gave out on me and I seriously just fell to the ground and then today I was going to my grandma's house to talk before I left for the hospital and as I set my right foot down my ankle just burst with pain and now its just killing me.

HELP!!!

Hard Sun

2008-05-09T04:20:30Z

mmm. I did get to go play tennis yesterday. I did a quick warm up by doing a few streches and jogged a lap around the courts before some light hitting and wow. When I warm up before a match, i'm so tense and nervous I can't even simply hit the ball over the net and even just playing a match with my uncle i feel nervous. I definately knew that I was going to do good when the ball was going over the net really easily and I did do well. My serve was a bit off but I wanted to not go crazy with it but WOW. my groundstrokes were really solid and good. My backhand was a little wary for a while but my uncle and I were hitting a really good rally and I just run to the left side of the court and just SMACK this really good backhand down the line and most of the time I really don't follow through with my shots, I kinda bring the racket near my shoulder, but never over and it was so good. It came so easily and I even followed through. My forehand was pretty good too and I even went to the net for a few shots but my volleys are definately off.

Bahaha. That was so amazing. :]

School today was pretty good. I got all my homework for tomorrow and so tomorrow my dad is having a heart surgery because he has this heart condition, i'm not really sure of the name but its where his heart beat is irregular and beats wayyy more than it really should and this really non evasive surgery will fix that problem, and I'll study for a bit because i have two upcomming tests in Science and Government and then make up tests for Spanish and a quiz on Romeo and Juliet in english.

I'm not too worried but I really want to be there when he goes into surgery but my mom is making me stay home and I totally understand because if I see my dad in his litle gown thingy and taking the pills that they give you before surgery and see him getting an IV put in... well, I'll be passing out. And I don't want that happening so I'm going to the hospital later.

Well, enough of this totally depressing stuff. Onto a topic that is a bit more depressing but its fine.

Tati has pulled out of Rome, Strausburg, and ROLAND GARROS.

Oh geez Tat...I was so shocked by this information. I know that I heard that she was having some exams and stuff done but I did not expect this at all. What a curveball! I really hope during this time off that Tatiana takes it slow, rests and relaxs and also works a bit on some rehab and stuff. I really hope she doesn't rush it and rush to get back. Yes, Tati, I know the tour is SO boring without you but please take your time. Hun, if you feel your not ready then DO NOT come back! please! Come back at 110% and get back on track and kick some ass.

Hehe. I'm also working on a video documenting Tatiana's 2007 season and its coming along quite nicely. :) I'll post it here when it is done.

Well, its pretty late so I should be in bed so good night everyone!

And I also saw this on another friend's journal so I thought I'd post it too:

5 Songs I Really Love Right Now:

1. Hard Sun - Eddie Vedder
2. Shine - Collective Soul
3. Black Hole Sun - Sound Garden
4. Even Flow - Pearl Jam
5. No Handlebars - ???

Run

2008-05-07T23:11:35Z

God. I just have this feeling to just go out and RUN. I remember when I was playing tennis for the team and we ran two laps around the courts after streching before hitting for a bit. Man, I would just love that. I want to do that now but I'm so out of shape.

I just want to go to the courts and hit and play like I used to do and just do really good. But I don't really have anyone to go with.

Well, on Brewers Live they just showed JJ looking very adorable and eee. I just love it. But it still doesn't get rid of my urge to run and play tennis. :)

Maybe I'll go for a walk and work up to jogging. I just wish I didn't have to go alone.

All You Have You've Wasted

2008-05-06T00:51:39Z

Spanish II - C

Keyboarding - B

Earth Science - C+

Pre Algebra - C

English 9 - B

American Government - B

23 days until Finals! Which means 23 days to raise these damn grades.

And now I'm going to go on a rant about that earth science grade. I fucking hate my teacher. He is so fucking lazy. he hands out so mich homework everyday, like a lab and then the actual homework assignment and he can't even keep track of it. he even told us when he wanted us to grade one of our freaking assignments and its utter fucking bullshit. I handed in the Biomass lab that we did but i was sick the day we did the Insulation lab and so in the grade book he gives me an A on the INSULATION LAB but says that the BIOMASS LAB is missing. WHAT THE FUCK.

And then the Earthquake test that I took WEEKS ago, he says I'm missing. And then this HUGE chapter worksheet packet that I did, I HANDED IN. but he gives me an F. I'm yelling at him tomorrow. I'm not even joking.

Ugh. I'm so sad Tati lost today. poor girl. Hopefully we can expect more next week in Rome. And alos how about those brewers? pfft. Getting SWEPT by the Astros. I mean, the astros are pretty good, I like them... but Wow. I definately wasn't expecting that. When the score was 6-3 brewers, I took a nap thinking Gagne was going to get it done.... Boy was I wrong.

Hopefully tomorrow will be a new day for them. :)

SOMEONE WRITE ME SOME JJ HARDY/RYAN BRAUN SLASH!!! GAHHH!

Aww.

2008-05-03T01:04:56Z

I was looking through my Godfather book and talking on the phone with Antoinette when they showed Ryan Braun looking ever so adorable with his hair all standing on end and ahhh!! I love him! and he was all streching out in the dugout and he goes over and just randomly lays his hand on JJ Hardy's thigh.

Bahaha. I love it.

Help me! I Need SLEEP!

2008-04-17T02:41:52Z

I get no sleep anymore. All I do is go to school, do homework, watch baseball, and talk to Antoinette. I'm running on empty.

And dammit. The Brewers are getting their asses kicked against The Cardinals and Wow. I grew to like baseball from watching a Yankees game on The Brewers opening day... And now I'm cheering for THE RED SOX. Someone punch me in the face, please. I'm a traitor! :[

Ugh. Just got home from hanging out with Antoinette and I want to watch the end of the brewer game but I really don't know... I'm just exhausted and I'm not sure if I'll make it.

Come on Brew Crew!

And omg! It was 70 degrees out today and they actually put the tennis nets up, finally! I wanted to play very bad but no one was home for me to play with and then at 5 I had to leave to go to Court with Antoinette because I was there for moral support because she was hearing her case from drinking at school. Its no biggie though. She just has to go to this really expensive 12 hour AA class.

Okay. I can't write anymore. Good night!

I Have A Problem With Updating!

2008-04-10T00:05:48Z

I would update (because I do have to tell you all about the brewer game Antoinette and I went to and I do have to show you all the amazing pictures we got!) but the brewer game is just about to start and I want to continue reading the new book I just started today called "Red Rage." Its pretty good so far.

I promise tomorrow!!!

Sealed With A Kiss

2008-04-04T19:05:08Z

Wow I haven't updated in a while! I'm sorry! Well... to update you, I had the most wonderful weekend last weekend and I definately must tell you about it. I had PT on friday and afterwords we went and picked Antoinette up and that night we ate Cousins subs, AN ENTIRE PAN OF BROWNIES, and soup and we sat on myspace and watched Whats Love Got To Do With It? and then on Saturday afternoon we went to the mall and got a few items from American Eagle and ate at Burger King and laughed at the people outside but more importantly, we went to a birthday party for our friend Dwane!

We really thought the party was boring when it started. it was just the regulars at Chris and Dwanes, but it turned out really fun. At first we just kinda played music and sat there but then we started singing and dancing and started cheering for everyone in beer pong and flip cup. Of course we couldn't play. This guy Zach and Little Dwane's girlfriend Carmen were pretty upset that we couldn't play and they wouldn't even believe we were only fifteen. oh well. OUR DAY WILL COME!!!

We sang so many good songs like "Celebration" "Oh What A Night" "Lets Get It On" and even "Whats Love Got To Do With it?" This one regular at the parties though was really pissing me off. His name is Adam and usually he is very mellow and doesn't really get drunk at all but when Elmer, a close friend of the family's had a heart attack and died, Elmer basically died in his arms and now... well, hes kinda messed up. And he sat there yelling at me and Antoinette because he thought we didn't understand the song ("Whats love got to do with it?") and then he started RAVING about how we treat out parents bad and how we're not respectable or something... just drunken bullshit but whatever.

And then Dwane and his friends started to play football with a frozen pork shoulder, a bag of frozen hashbrowns, and a loaf of garlic bread and then they brought the cake out and all fucking hell broke loose. A hugeee cake fight happened. I was absolutely covered in it, everything and everybody was covered in it. and it was a spiderman cake! bahaha. And then me and antoinette played with the flip cup glasses and this guy Zach was helping us and then WE WENT UPSTAIRSSS.

All of Little Dwane's friends basically threw up everywhere and passed out and so we just hung around him for the rest of the night and LOL. Antoinette has a problem with going to the bathroom at parties alone so I went to the bathroom with her all night and as we were walking upstairs we were going into the bathroom that is right at the top of the stairs and its a tiny ass bathroom, only ment for one person really but we could fit both of us in there and we went in, did our buisness and as we are opening the door, Big Dwane sees us and just freaks out and everyone who was in the living room and kitchen just came and stared at us in the bathroom. Kinda akward but absolutely hilarious. And then Dwane mistaked Antoinette's name for MACAYLA! Antoinette's little sister is named Mckayleigh so he probably got confused but I almost peed myself laughing. Taha. Somehow he knew my name. Dwane's head was caked with frosting so i washed his hair for him and ahhh!! HES AMAZINGGG. He sat and gave us a lecture on his peppermint shampoo and mango conditioner, but its all good because mango is one of my favorite scents. :]

And then we ate popsicles and drank grape soda from the bottle and it was really fun until that drunk guy i mentioned before, Adam, came up and TOTALLY freaked out. We were just sitting there and he comes upstairs and starts raving about how Antoinette and I hanging out with Dwane was not age apropriate and how hes not a police officer or something. ugh. it was really pissing me off. But then we both had to leave since it was getting on Midnight and i was nottt expecting this but Dwane just reached out and hugged me and kissed me.

Bahaha. I love him. hes very random. and he gave antoinette a kiss as well and then he accompanied us downstairs and like held us and kissed our heads and um BAD MOVE. My dad was standing right there (Hes like a 6'5 scary, muscular full blooded Italian looking guy... and well, lets just say A LOT of people are afraid of him) and we are SO lucky he didn't see us. That would have been absolutely horrible. Then we had to leave and yeah, that was depressing but such a lovely ending to the night.

And now time for pictures!

Antoinette and I

Dwane!! And the spiderman cake.

Cake fight!

I slapped her in the eye with a huge piece of cake.

She got me back., Taha!

The pork shoulder, which flew around the room many times.

Dwane waiting for me to wash his hair.

And then I had to wash his back because there was cake on it. :D

Ahh. I love them.

Ugh. I couldn't even lean my head over to smile because he was squishing me so... lol, look at our gayness

And tonight Mom and I will go pick Antoinette up after PT again because tomorrow we are going TO THE BREWER GAME!!! BAHAHA!

Come on Brew Crew!

SPRING BREAK

2008-03-21T21:32:13Z

IS NO PLACE FOR 14 INCHES OF SNOW!!!

WHAT THE HELL!?!?

And here I thought I was going to be able to get a match or two into my spring break but entire area just got dumped with a crap load of snow and my plans had to be cancelled for tonight. UGH!

When The Night Falls On You, Baby

2008-03-21T03:29:52Z

Oh geez.
I want to talk to him SO BAD!
But i really don't want to seem annoying...
Ahhh.
AHH!!!!

OH geez! what do I say!?